nathalia | Entries tagged with six feet under

Yesterday, I saw Sex and the City. I hated it to death. I wrote about it but my computer kind of died. Right now, I can't rewrite it because I need to listen to Lost podcasts. I just watched the forth season finale and, wow, it was awesome. I'll be in withdrawl and trying to figure out what to watch next until Lost comes back on. I want to check out other HBO series like The Wire because I have a lot of faith in HBO although they disappointed me with th SatC movie. But they have given me Six Feet Under and Oz (yes, I just mentioned Oz once again).

It’s time to say goodbye to four icons while introducing four new ones. The new ones have one thing in common: they feature a girl named Nathalia. Weird, huh?

First off, goodbyes:

#1 corrupted girl

This was one of the first icons I uploaded because it was so cool and it suggested that I was corrupted and back then I just thought it was amazing. As time went by and I learned to create my own icons in addition to finding some very cool ones, I realized that maybe this one wasn’t so cool after all but I kept it a long time because, heck, I am kind of corrupted. People who are forced to spend time with me will say that “total lack of sanity” describes it a lot better, but I think “corrupted” fits me as well.

#2 tardis

This is a picture I took myself while in London in 2007 and I got to see the police box outside Earl’s Court Station which was amazing. Even when I uploaded the image I was aware of the fact that it sucked as an icon and it was only supposed to be temporary while I looked for a better one or created a better one myself but I never got around to doing it and I knew it would have to be kicked out of circulation as soon as I replaced icons again. The time has come for it and I’m not particularly sad about it.

#3 six feet under

This is another icon I created myself. I had wanted to create a cool Six Feet Under icon but I have to admit that I failed to, simply using the logo because I couldn’t decide on which character of the show I wanted. I only used this icon very sporadically, more often than not forgetting about its existence but reminding myself of it. I had wanted to replace it a long time ago but once again I was too lazy to do so and finally in London this year I decided that it was time to add more icons showing myself and get rid of icons I don’t like very much and deciding on this one was a no brainer.

#4 joker

This very early image of Heath Ledger as the Joker was what convinced me that Ledger would actually be an awesome Joker as I was sure he would suck. As the times went on, they decided to go with a different look for the Joker which is totally cool as well, but I kept this user pic because for some reason, I just love this promo. He looks scary and dark and yet very different than what they went with in the end and you don’t see much of this early promo anymore, it was the very first one to be released and I felt like it surprised me a lot.

And the new ones:

#1 cowgirl / don

This was taken outside on April 19^th when Ali, Madeleine, Vanessa, and Lara were at my place and Ali and I decided to put on cowboy hats and sunglasses and go crazy. We ended up founding a mafia with me as the Don and Ali as the consiglieri (I was listening to the unabridged audio book of Mario Puzo’s The Godfather at the time). And we became Amazons. Mafia Amazons. We had lots of fun until Ali puked her guts out. I don’t think the others had as much fun as we did, though. I know it’s unbelievable, but I was totally sober when this all happened.

#2 passport

I got this picture taken for my driver’s license and I love it. It isn’t all too flattering that I am almost as pale as the white background, but even though, I adore this photo and as just after it was taken I knew that I had to make an icon out of it. I’m wearing my DSV sweater and polo underneath.

#3 cute

No, I haven’t named this one myself. In fact, I wasn’t even going to use it, but I showed it to Vanessa and she said it was cute. You can see me hugging Nikki and I had to choose between this icon featuring Nikki and another and I decided to go with this one because the other one also had Ali in it and it has the same color scheme of the Locke one (black and white with one thing being in color as inspired by the Sin City movie). So, this one is Vanessa’s fault, I’m going to blame her if I don’t like it anymore in a few weeks.

#4 sleep

I love to sleep. It is a hobbie of mine that I would never give up on. This is me asleep. My sister took the picture and you may or may not see that I am hugging Nikki which makes it his second appearance in this batch of icons.

BROTHERS & SISTERS 102

- I think it's fun that in those family shows, the dads always have to die early on.

- My favorite line from the first episode, "Dad, what have you done?"

- "I want you between me and the feeling I get when I miss you when everything here tells me I should be fine" (song)

- Let's see if I can recall the characters' names. Sarah, mom of two kids, married to Joe. Kevin, the gay lawyer. Justin, the addict. Tommy who has a wife. Kitty, the right-wing activist. I think that*s it. Then, there's Nora and Dad, who is dead.

- that Holly Haper was Dad's mistress. I'm totally sure.

- Kitty looks a bit like the blondes in Lost.

- Oh, that's Kevin?! I thought it was Tommy.

- I don't like Kitty that much. Her political views bother me.

- marital problems because Sarah has a job and has to take care of the kids.

- who is Josh?

- in ER, Sally Field whom I always call Sally Fields looks older. Maybe I'm thinking of Kerry, the doctor with the crutch though. It would explain why Sally Field looked so different in my head.

- "Who knew there were so many biographies on Ronald Reagan?"

- Why do they keep mentioning Jonathan? The realtionship won't last anyway.

- Is Kevin a republican or a democrat* I wonder.

- Even Nora calls Dad Dad. I don't think Dad has a real name. I think his name is just Dad like in the episode of Six Feet Under where the dead character's name is Daddy and he has a weird commune with many kids and a couple of wives who also call him Daddy. I like that idea. Not that I would start calling Dad by another name if they should reveal it. I think he name is Dad.

- so Justin is now spying on people? Maybe he should have stayed on drugs.

- Come up with an awesome excuse! This is original (I mean it!) she just says it. Or even better, she doesn't, Justin just knows.

- Oh great, business talk I don't understand! I guess the short version is Dad did something illegal.

- Sarah has a big conscience. So much unlike Brenda.

- Justin is weird.

- tension as Sarah becomes the president of the company. I guess Tommy wanted it because he probably worked with Dad all his adult life and Sarah was working at some big corporation and only joined the family business recently. That has been hinted at in this and the last episode.

- Oh, a mystery.

- Justin doesn't get the money, only an allowance.

- Why do they not put Justin in rehab? He really needs it.

- A gay receptionist. WTF?! Why does he insist on Kevin admiting that he is gay? This is a weird, weird scene.

- Fire alarm. Is Justin smoking pot* Why has the alarm gone off!

- Justin is such a cliche irresponsible youngest dress.

- Go, Nora! Piss Kitty off.

- I can totally see why Nora blames Kitty and Dad. Maybe because I like her political views a lot better then Kitty's.

- Embezzlement. I haven't figured out what that is even though I've heard it many times. It's a fun word though and I know it's illegal and has to do woth business. I think it means that you keep some money for yourself not putting taxes on it or something. I could just use a dictionary, but where's the fun in that?

- Why doesn't Kevin work with the family?

- I like Kevin's blue eyes.

- Is that girl still Fawn or a new one? Okay, it's Fawn. Are they dating?

- "I swear, Mrs. Justin, I don't know where he is."

- Is Nora really trying to break up Fawn and Justin's relationship? She is hot though.

- Tension. Tension. Tension.

- How does Joe feel about Sarah being president of the company?

- Noel, the guy 'm sure Sarah cares about. He has a few nice lines and the scene in the first episode after Sarah had talked to him and sat in the car crying. It was an incredily beautiful scene.

- Kitty wants to be loved by Nora. She wants to have a relationship just like their parents did.

- Justin is in fucking jail?!

- Joel understands Sarah. I like them as a couple. Joe seems weird.

- Joel: "How can you feel so guily when nothing happened between us?"
Sarah: "Because being in sync with someone that is not your husband is almost as painful as not being in sync with your husband."

- Joel is married.

- Sarah isn*t a mom. I like how she is a mom but not a perfect mom. It's realistic.

- Okay, Nora is overreacting. Blaming Kevin for having acted like a lawyer isn't reasonable.

- Sarah is a great character. I thought I liked her because Rachel Griffiths was the actress but now I*m seeing that she is great as Sarah just like she was as Brenda.

- Hello, ptsd.

- Why is Joe so nice all of a sudden? He cares about her. I thought he was just bored about the relationship, but he cares. I like the family life and how he knows that she isn*t the perfect mom.

- Do the kids have names?

- Fun little scene after the whole tension. I like Kevin and Nora's reaction to porn.

- Why does one of the kids always think that they are hated by their dads once they are dead. And one of their older siblings has to tell them some very touching story that proves the opposite.

- The music is great.

- Justin likes Death Cab For Cutie. And Dad did, too.

- So Tommy didn*t go to college. He joined the family business after graduating high school. Sarah on the other hand started somewhere else and only came to the business later. I get why Dad chose her as the corporation's president.

- Hey, J. likes that song! It's one of the songs I actually like that she listens to.

It's amazing how much the truth and being confronted with it can piss you off. Dani is watching SFU, an episode in which Vanessa is suffering from clinic depression and goes on a shopping spree and it hurts so fucking much to see such a thing happen to somebody else when you know how it feels to have it happen to you in real life. It upsets me so much, it hurts, I don't want to hear or see it but know that I have to keep my emotions in check because freaking out just wouldn't be the right thing to do, no matter how I feel.

Yesterday, she fell down while climbing up the stairs. I carried her to bed. She was almost asleep, I was afraid she wouldn't be able to walk. I know this isn't how things usually are, not anymore, but whenever I see anything like this somewhere else, the thought that it could come back, it makes me feell like my heart is being torn out. I want to scream, to cry, to do ... I don't know what. But I don't. I just direct my anger towards something else, for example my friends, as wrong as that might be. There is this little bit of anger I feel towards them for one reason or another and the anger I feel towards her and her condition and whatever just amplifies it so much and ... I don't know. This is just how fucked up I can be.

I got in contact with J. again and I would really like to know what he meant when he wrote that he'd like to meet me again and catch up and do those things we couldn't when we last got together because we ran out of time. This guy makes my head spin. Mentioned carnaval in Salvador, but this is a no-go for me. It would be much better if he came next year even though I don't really know what carnaval with a guy would be like. Not that I'd hook up with him again ... okay, I would. But it would be weird. Then again, thinking of him as a friend is weird. He is a man, and not just some man. (I could go into details about what kind of man he is, but ´that wouldn't be adequate).

Dani and I watched plenty of SFU today, she is still watching on AC's mini DVD, I want to write a bit. I've been trying to get back to my Misfits which is working. Distancing myself from them was a good idea. Now I can go back with a new perspective.

Dani is fast asleep. It's amazing how long this girl can sleep -- and this is coming from me who enjoys sleeping in. Today, I woke up at 8am and just couldn't get back to sleep although I tried really hard and had only gpne to bed at about 1:30am.

I've been doing my social studies homework since then, a bit at least, and reading the Sinestro Corps War. It's just amazing and I can't wait to read the Blackest Night. Good thing I only have to wait until summer 2009. It will most likely be their summer event and I like that it has already been announced. I am totally convinced that Johns will deliver great stuff in it and have an interesting build-up. Some things were obvious, for example that Sodam Yat would be the one to take up the mantle of Ion. I knew it when Arisia was told to keep an eye on him. But he is a cool character and all this seems to be a nice throwback to a story Alan Moore wrote in the 1980s that mentioned a Sodom Yat, a very powerful Green Lantern with Kryptonian powers, who according to some prophecy died in the Blackest Night or something. I don't remember much. It just returned to me because I read something about it somewhere.

I have to admit that right now I am enjoying the DCU as a whole a lot more than the Marvel Universe. I like Birds of Prey, Teen Titans, Justice Society of America, Green Lantern Corps, Green Lantern, Wonder Woman, Nightwing, Booster Gold, The All-New Atom, Action Comics and Superman. In the Marvel U, I stick to Captain America (the best title they are putting out), X-Men, X-Factor, Uncanny X-Men, Daredevil, and New Avengers although the pacing annoys me. And I'm enjoying the Messiah Complex. I just hope it won't end in the same lame way as World War Hulk did.

Yesterday, Dani and I watched four episodes of Six Feet Under because it seemed that everyone was either at some relative's birthday or learning or whatever. I'm under the impression that Dani enjoyed SFU even though she seemed to dislike the sexual imagery between David and Keith which I myself enjoy quite a bit (I know it figures). I might as well ask her about it, it surprised me to see her reaction to it.

I have deleted and replaced my userpics. Well, not all, but quite a few. Behind the link, you will find comments on all of them. The old ones, the new ones and the ones I kept.

( Icons!! )

Current Music: Quiet! Panolologists At Work -- Episode 22

I just watched the series' finale of Six Feet Under (512 "Everybody's Waiting") again and just like the first time I couldn't restrain myself and burst into tears during the last sequence because it is the most perfect moment I have ever seen in television and I don't think that any other tv series in mylife will affect me in the way this one.

Not Desperate Housewives, not Lost ... Lost is good for mystery, but the finale will offer answers, not play with the drama the way Six Feet Under did. Showing all main characters' deaths was just so fitting to the concept of the show because it is about (life and) death and this time the viewer has to deal with it on their own, they don't get emotional support from the other characters like they got when Lisa (401) or Nate (510) died.

It is the perfect ending.

There is nothing that is like or even close to it.

This is so fucking emotional but not sappy or annoying. Alan Ball plays with the viewers' emotions and feelings they developed for the character throughout the five seasons perfectly, thereby producing the perfect ending.

Period.

So, I am skipping school tomorrow. I just told my mother I wouldn't be going and she asked why, I gave her an explanation, saying that there is the possibility of me screwing up because I have too much Portuguese in my head and she told me that it was up to me to make the decision. If I thought that skipping classes was the right thing to do, then I should do it.

We watched the first three episodes of the fifth season of Six Feet Under. Even when watching it a second time, I really, really love Six Feet Under and I made my mom promise me that she would not under any circumstances watch the series' finale without me because Six Feet Under's series' finale was the most perfect ending to a tv show that I have ever seen. I am trying to think of series that I watched from beginning to end and I can think of Buffy, Sex and the City, Coupling (British Version) and Friends and honestly, none of them have such a perfect ending as Six Feet Under does.

I think I might try to write something for Script Frenzy, I wasn't able to yesterday (thanks to by sister) or the day before, so I have to catch up. Well, not really, as I have written about 71% of the necessary words already, but I hate when I'm not able to write.

The bill for the AlphaSmart came today, the company will have the money by Monday and then they will send me my AlphaSmart Neo and I will be very, very happy.

( WARNING!! Rant on many things )

I just watched the finale of Six Feet Under after a terrible dermatitis attack and that is really something you shouldn't do.
It is the most perfect episode ever, best of the show certainly. It's sad and at the same time happy. I wept throughout at least the last ten minutes and the credits and I usually don't cry, but I found myself weeping, it was a very profound moment. The idea of seeing all your beloved characters that you grew to love throughout the five seasons die is just so great and the way it was done ... it was just so, so perfect. I almost forgot I was itching while I watched the end (but it got back just afterwards, I think it's getting better now, though).
It has an ending aspect to it, you know that it's over and that's it. Buffy's ending was good, but it didn't have this epic feeling, the same goes for Angel, Coupling or Charmed (that is the last season that I watched, the one Cole died, afterwards it got so crappy that I prefer to pretend that the last season I watched was the last). Friends didn't have this, probably because it is a comedy and not a drama or whatever Six Feet Under is.
Alan Ball is just a genius, something I've known before but of all he has written (and that I have seen) this is by far the best. Better than American Beauty, better than any other Six Feet Under episode.
The end with Claire driving away is just beautiful and the irony of Claire's death is sickening and fascinating at the same time. Of all people she was blinded, she, who used her eyes so much, took pictures of time.
There isn't anything I didn't like, I think, it was just so perfect.

Current Mood: artistic

Not done watching yet, but here's my opinion till now.

I’ve been watching the fifth season of Six Feet Under and it just sucks. It’s good, but I just can’t stand how things are going. Nate is acting like a total idiot, every time he opens his mouth, I just want to yell at him, because he has changed so much, he gets in a fight with Brenda every episode and he isn’t as likable as he used to be. I just want him to finally die (I know he will, more than ever after this last episode I watched, but I suspected from early on that Nate would die in the fifth season, why else should he have AVM?).

Ruth’s behaviour concerning George is understandable but still, I like George and it seems wrong to abandon your husband when he needs you most. George is troubled but very, very lovable, she could have given him a chance.

Davis is acting like a mother, one of those mothers who are afraid of their husbands and don’t want to punish their kids, no matter what. He and Keith get along in the end, but mostly, it just bothers me to see David covering up for Durell and Anthony, mostly Durell, all the time.

Claire’s doing okay, right now, she and Brenda are the most likable characters, I don’t like her at this law firm, but this guy, Ted, seems to be nice. Brenda is troubled, everything’s the same, she keeps clashing with Nate, but I find myself siding with her, probably because Nate’s just acting like this total idiot.

Maggie, I like her, but you feel how Nate is attracted to her and I just hate that. She’s a nice girl, but I don’t want Nate to feel for her and now everything has gone awry anyway, so. A few more episodes to go.

Current Music: 31Knots -- "Darling, I"

Ich habe innerhalb der letzten 48 Stunden die ganze erste Staffel von "Six Feet Under" geschaut und ich muss sagen, es ist genial. Ich habe nicht besonders viel erwartet von einer Serie, die sich mit einem Bestattungsinstitut beschäftigt, aber als ich den Piloten gesehen habe ... wow. Es geht nicht wirklich um ein Bestattungsinstitut, sondern um eine Familie, die eins führt und dessen Vater stirbt. Die beiden erwachsenen Söhne David (steif, überkritisch, gottesfürchtig ... und wie keiner weiß schwul) und Nate (locker, gelassen, hat keine Ahnung vom Geschäft) erben das Unternehmen, die Tochter Claire bekommt "nur" ihr ganzes College finanziert, woran sie aber keinerlei Interesse hat. Die Mutter Ruth schließlich ist merkwürdig und ich kann mit ihr nicht halbsoviel anfangen wie mit den anderen Personen. Es ist eine Art Tragikkömodie, ich wieß auch nicht, aber es ist toll.

Oh, und als ein gewisser Timm Sharp aufgetaucht ist (ich weiß, Silly hätte mich vor einem halbe Jahr noch für diese Aussage umgebracht), dachte ich: "Was macht Benjamin Wieland da?" Mittleriweile finde ich nicht mehr, dass Benjamin Wieland und Timm Sharp sich so ähnlich sehen, aber auf den ersten Blick dachte ich wirklich, er sei es.